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Old March 13th, 2018, 06:41 PM
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Am I crazy or does my best friend actually hate me?

So long story short.... I moved in with my best friend and her husband and 2 kids back in August. Her mom was don't of cancer (she passed this past December), I just got divorced and for nearly 3 years she had been trying to get me to move in with her anyways. We lived 1000 miles apart, we met in an online game and instantly became bff's. We have that kind of friendship that most people dream of having. No secrets, enough fun and enough serious. We literally do everything together.

I helped her through the death of her mom, cleaning the house, buying groceries (and paying rent because she lost her job), taking care of the kids, laundry, cooking.... Literally everything. Gave her emotional support, ran errands, was a distraction when she needed it.

But.... These last few months (and I know this is going to sound crazy) she's been deleting any posts from her fb that I tag her in, not posting that I'm with her, and not liking my stuff. Is it the end of the world? No. But we've always had that friendship where we tag each other constantly in everything. We're the first to like the others posts and pictures, etc. On top of that she gets sometimes snippy with me. A lot of times ignoring my texts. Or just plain ignoring me when I'm in the same room. I'm 1000 miles away from my friends and family. I only have her. I'm not that great at making friends and honestly I work a lot. Normally I'd give her space and find someone else to talk to and wait for her to come to me. But.... She's all I have!!! And her behavior has changed but ONLY towards me.

I have asked her if we're good, she says yes. She'd if she's mad at me, no. We've talked about us and she told me that her love for me is eternal and unconditional. But she's also a huge liar. Do I want to think that a friend that I am/was THAT close to (people often think we're twins... Sometimes lesbians) wouldn't lie about something like that? Yes of course. I trust her with my life. But after living with her.... I see how much she lies. And I struggle with depression, insecurities, anxiety, low self esteem. Not to mention every person I ever called my best friend has abandoned me in the past.

Am I crazy? Is this nothing to do with me and she's just taking it out on me for whatever reason? Or... Has she actually started to hate me?
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