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Old March 13th, 2018, 05:41 PM
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Am I crazy or does my best friend actually hate me?

So long story short.... I moved in with my best friend and her husband and 2 kids back in August. Her mom was don't of cancer (she passed this past December), I just got divorced and for nearly 3 years she had been trying to get me to move in with her anyways. We lived 1000 miles apart, we met in an online game and instantly became bff's. We have that kind of friendship that most people dream of having. No secrets, enough fun and enough serious. We literally do everything together.

I helped her through the death of her mom, cleaning the house, buying groceries (and paying rent because she lost her job), taking care of the kids, laundry, cooking.... Literally everything. Gave her emotional support, ran errands, was a distraction when she needed it.

But.... These last few months (and I know this is going to sound crazy) she's been deleting any posts from her fb that I tag her in, not posting that I'm with her, and not liking my stuff. Is it the end of the world? No. But we've always had that friendship where we tag each other constantly in everything. We're the first to like the others posts and pictures, etc. On top of that she gets sometimes snippy with me. A lot of times ignoring my texts. Or just plain ignoring me when I'm in the same room. I'm 1000 miles away from my friends and family. I only have her. I'm not that great at making friends and honestly I work a lot. Normally I'd give her space and find someone else to talk to and wait for her to come to me. But.... She's all I have!!! And her behavior has changed but ONLY towards me.

I have asked her if we're good, she says yes. She'd if she's mad at me, no. We've talked about us and she told me that her love for me is eternal and unconditional. But she's also a huge liar. Do I want to think that a friend that I am/was THAT close to (people often think we're twins... Sometimes lesbians) wouldn't lie about something like that? Yes of course. I trust her with my life. But after living with her.... I see how much she lies. And I struggle with depression, insecurities, anxiety, low self esteem. Not to mention every person I ever called my best friend has abandoned me in the past.

Am I crazy? Is this nothing to do with me and she's just taking it out on me for whatever reason? Or... Has she actually started to hate me?
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Old March 13th, 2018, 06:37 PM
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Re: Am I crazy or does my best friend actually hate me?

Maybe she's just overwhelmed by you. If she has a husband and 2 kids, maybe she misses having alone time with them? I know if it were me, I couldn't live with someone besides my husband and kids long term. Maybe she needs space to grieve her mother.

It sounds like you have been a great friend to her. I doubt she hates you. I think I'd start taking long weekend trips though, or find another living situation to preserve the friendship.
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Old March 13th, 2018, 06:40 PM
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Re: Am I crazy or does my best friend actually hate me?

There is a lot going on in your post, and the truth is that no one but your friend can answer if your best friend hates you. But you don't trust her to be honest, and you don't trust your own judgement.

That leaves facts and reason.

The facts are that you moved 1000 miles to live with someone you've only known online. You became pretty enmeshed in her life, at the invitation. You are together all the time, and what had been an escape from her real life-- the online life-- is now wrapped up in her real life. I suspect the problem is that there is no space between her real life and her online life, and there's no space between you and her.

The best way to put space between you is for you to move out. I think your friendship will improve with that distance. Whether you stay in the same neighborhood or move back home is up to you. Frankly, if I thought the person I was living with was a liar, I'd go back home, but that's your decision.

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Old March 15th, 2018, 05:56 AM
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Re: Am I crazy or does my best friend actually hate me?

We met several times in real life before I moved in. Usually for a few weeks at a time. I mentioned moving out the other day and she got incredibly depressed. Which I feel like sends me mixed signals because of her actions towards me.

I try to create space by doing my own thing. But she got upset with me and quite obviously jealous every time I make plans with someone or try to be out of the house, even though having friends other than her was her suggestion.

As far as being alone with her family, her family is untraditional. Her husband has Asperger's, he's a cop and works overnights. They both prefer it that way. They have always spent very little time together. And they like it that way. But it also made her feel incredibly lonely. Which is where I came in. We are incredibly close, by her actions, not mine. Everything our friendship is, was because of her. Not me. I had a similar life in that I was lonely with my husband and had no friends, just like her. But I never had intentions of being close with her. She forced it.

And yea, right now I don't trust her because she TELLS me she loves me eternally and unconditionally but her ACTIONS don't match. She TOLD me to make friends, when I did... It upset her. The amount of mixed signals I'm receiving has caused a rift in the trust department.
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Re: Am I crazy or does my best friend actually hate me?

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. We are incredibly close, by her actions, not mine. Everything our friendship is, was because of her. Not me. I had a similar life in that I was lonely with my husband and had no friends, just like her. But I never had intentions of being close with her. She forced it.
I didn't expect you to say you are married. Where is your husband?

As for "never had intentions" and "She forced it," this required your cooperation. Somewhere along the way, you choose to be close to her, too. So you are "incredibly close" because of both of your actions.

Honestly, this is at least an emotional affair, and you're attributing emotions to your friend that rightfully belong to your spouse. She is doing the same. I think you will always find the relationship lacking. Each of you should turn back to your spouses to resolve your loneliness in your marriages.
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Old March 15th, 2018, 01:26 PM
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I am not married. I divorced. Which is what gave me the motivation to move.

We are incredibly close in that we tell each other everything. And like I said, I tell her to spend time with her husband and kids without me. Somehow she manages to convince me to spend time with them as well. The dynamic of our friendship has worked for a long time. The problems started after her mom died. They got better after I went home for a week. Now we've got different problems ever since she told me to get friends so I did

Let me clarify when I said I had no intentions of being close. Yes, I let it happen. But after her constant insisting that we talk daily and share everything, etc.



I didn't expect you to say you are married. Where is your husband?

As for "never had intentions" and "She forced it," this required your cooperation. Somewhere along the way, you choose to be close to her, too. So you are "incredibly close" because of both of your actions.

Honestly, this is at least an emotional affair, and you're attributing emotions to your friend that rightfully belong to your spouse. She is doing the same. I think you will always find the relationship lacking. Each of you should turn back to your spouses to resolve your loneliness in your marriages.[/quote]
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Re: Am I crazy or does my best friend actually hate me?

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I am not married. I divorced. Which is what gave me the motivation to move.

We are incredibly close in that we tell each other everything. And like I said, I tell her to spend time with her husband and kids without me. Somehow she manages to convince me to spend time with them as well. The dynamic of our friendship has worked for a long time. The problems started after her mom died. They got better after I went home for a week. Now we've got different problems ever since she told me to get friends so I did

Let me clarify when I said I had no intentions of being close. Yes, I let it happen. But after her constant insisting that we talk daily and share everything, etc.
I really hope this doesn't offend you, because I really don't mean for it to.

I wonder if your friend doesn't have a sexual attraction towards you that she's struggling with?

Honestly, I really don't do well with the push-pull stuff. Make friends/don't make friends. The question you asked is whether she hates you, but if I were in your shoes my question would be "Do I want to cool down this relationship?"
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